Well, today was kind of a mixed bag. Our dog, Darcy, a super sweet little dog that we rescued 3 years ago from a kill shelter in Abilene. She has been a wonderful dog, loving to cuddle not getting into very much trouble. Poor little thing had no idea what hit her when we brought Oliver home. She didn't like him. We think that she probably was abused by little children before we got her. We really loved her.
Once Oliver came she didn't get near the amount of attention and she didn't like Oliver. She started acting out in little ways and even nipped at Oliver the other day. We decided to find her a new home where she could be the center of attention again and get all the love she used to.
We found a nice college age girl to give her to and today I brought her to the new girl and gave her away. It's a little sad, she really was a good dog and she was our baby before we had a baby. It will be better for her, better for us and better for that college girl. Sad though, Oliver really loved her. I am glad he's not old enough to notice that she's gone.
The gluten thing, not bad today - yogurt, baked potatos and homemade fried rice without soy sauce made for food that was pretty edible. Still hard though, I am majorly craving pizza and that it definately not gluten free. I've heard the BJ's restaurant has gluten free pizza...have to go try it sometime soon.
On another note, I am currently supposed to be typing a paper for school. Problem is, I have absolutely no motivation to finish it. I am working on my masters in Christian Ministry but it seems like such a futile pursuit right now. I am only a couple of classes away and 3 papers from last spring when I was put on bedrest and couldn't finish my classes. But man, it's hard to work when it feels like there is no point. I don't know if I will ever be able to have a regular job, I am a stay at home mom. I can't imagine having to leave my son some where to work (that would be horrible) but, on the other hand, it's really demeaning not to have a meaningful career. I never got to use my degree's for a job, I've never had a title or an office or a paycheck that was from a real job (not just a put yourself through college job). It causes this weird sort of depression, not really depression but maybe more a weird sort of lack of desire or drive to do anything and sort of trapped feeling.
Who knows, every day is a new day. Maybe once I start being able to sleep at night things will get better.
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